Capitalism's Scams

I am dealing with an insurance company. I hate Insurance Companies at this point. They do not live in my world and I am being penalized for not living in their land of LALALA.
Getting ANYONE to do work on or in a house here is a miracle. If Someone shows up when they say they will be here I will need my smelling salts. I am never ready for that knock on the door by someone who says "I will be there tomorrow or Monday" or whatever freaking date comes to their minds. Yet the Insurance company expected me to repair a wall that was leaking even though the leak was caused by the leaking roof. I was on the list to get a new roof for 6 months. Does the insurance company have a crew to do repairs....no. So I am at the mercy of those who are in the business of construction. Of course the foundation was out of kilter and needed to be fixed before the roof could be done. It is a never ending cycle of waiting and being threatened by these brainless people who run these for profit mega companies who really loathe to pay out money for anything ever.

We are scared into insurance all the time by bad drivers, our thoughtless driving, and all the little things that can and do go wrong in life. Everything is expensive. Our modern lives are full of dangerous luxuries. Much like our ancestors feared fire we fear everything. We have so much stuff, such very expensive homes that any repair is a bank breaker since we are living beyond our means. I am not but more people than not are. I have an old house. I am fixing it since it has been neglected for decades. Surprisingly it is in OK shape even though the people who lived here since 1940 were trash and did everything badly wrong or stupid (not necessarily in that order) But my house was built in 1900. Built to last longer than the new houses are today.

I need new glass in the kitchen window....I had a man out and he quoted me a price and said he'd be back in a week....5 months ago. There is a plumber in town that is suppose to be the best in the business and he never shows up. Well to me the best in the business is the one who shows up or at least says he is so bust=y he can't do it.

Here a man's word is nothing. And all those nothings have tormented me for months.

There is no trust left in me for the big businesses/Capitalism. It may seem odd since it is the small business man that has thwarted my efforts to get things done to add to the economy. But these people are the bedrock of capitalism and these people are lousy so the foundation of America is rotten and soon it will start to fall from the bottom. The big businesses will suffer eventually. But those tycoons will still get their work done, wear their fancy suits and sit on their golden toilets. Me? I am so disgusted at this system that I don't care anymore. I hate those who do not live in reality....my world.

Uncomfortable Grace

I have been a vegetarian/vegan for over a decade. I like it. I am used to it. I miss it. I have taken in my 95 year old Aunty and she still has a relish for eating. She also likes to have me eat with her and share. So I decided to stop eating veg while she is still alive. A concession from love. The people who know me say it is a good thing for her sake. I am not worried about any sin. I do not believe in a god or gods anyway so the world is open to me with out someone imposing restrictions. So I make steaks and chops, filets. I have though, drawn the line at foul, that I will not eat, however I did buy some Cornish hens to cook for her. I cannot make for me my things and for her her things. I do not have the energy nor do I want her to feel uncomfortable while living with me. She is the one who was uprooted and had her home sold out from under her and sent to the streets (metaphorically speaking). I respect her age and her life. I am just missing my normal diet. When she is off her feed I eat my own way and feed her what she wants. I am used to doing this with my Dad when I cared for him those 26 years ago. So what is the point of this blog? None just to share with others how I feel today. It is hard to detach myself from the violent meat eating world, since I know better. I only cook the parts that do not gross me out. And it is hard but I do it from duty and love. Who else wanted an old lady have the best last days of her life except me? That is why she is in Maine and not in her little house in California. She had no one to take care of her. So I make sure she has what she desires. I miss tofu.

A Comparison on Judgement at Nuremberg

After watching the Judgement at Nuremberg for the second time this year I am compelled to write about the theme of that movie and what is happening today in the United States of America.
The German people were condemned for “allowing” Hitler and his NAZI party to get into and stay in power. The Judges went along with it, some holding their noses, some embracing the new patriotic feelings after the humiliation of WW1, some thinking it was a phase that would end.
The Population welcomed all the good that Hitler did. Since they were not involved with the bad stuff, they let it go and decided to not pay attention to it. The” Others” were not them or their friends or family. Out of sight out of mind.

I have a staunch republican voter in the house, she is elderly but still has her mind. She can represent the mind of the normal people who embrace FOX news and are not involved in anything outside their own lives.
I am one of the current “others”.
Today I told her that I lost my job, which I loved, went to college to learn and worked at for 10 years because of my religion. Those terrorists were, after all Muslims, and all Muslims are potential terrorists. My relatives knew I was Muslim since I was 16. However in their desire to forget me and my leaving the Christian/Jewish fold, they never once considered how I and my husband could be affected after 9/11 or with the anti Muslim sentiment that has prevailed in this country for decades. They never once gave it a thought. Just like the good Germans never gave what was going on a thought. Most were not intellectuals. And thinking too much is hard work.
Many people here are more like the character Montgomery Clift played in the movie. The challenge to understand or go outside their comfort zone never appealed to them. It is as easy to be ignorant of the world’s happenings now as it was then with no TV and limited news access. The cable channels make it easy to never hear anything that you do not already believe or validates your ideals. People today are as ignorant as they were in the 1900s, 1910s,1920s, 1930s.

Now general ignorance is even more so since there is a lot of easy idea to fill the gaps in knowledge. There are many lies, misstatements, and propaganda that fill the airwaves and the empty minds of those who are not up to the intellectual challenge of out side their box life.
FOX and the other networks are enough for them. And most will rather watch a 50 year old rerun or a game show than to think. After all it is not their problem or life that is affected by the infection of the lie deliberate.
So how did the Germans let the NAZIs happen and all that came after? The same way the Americans are letting it happen now. We have no death camps...we are much more subtle than that.

We do kill an amazing amount of people a day in our quest to rid the world, our world, of Terrorists ( which all seem to be Muslims). We are much cleaner with the drones, and we kill them over in their own countries so we do not need to dispose them off after they are dead. We do not even record how many we kill, we do not care to know their names or gender or age.

So my dear fellow Americans this is how the German people let such a thing happen. Just like you are letting it happen now. Just like we turn a blind eye to Israel as their do it to those who just happened to living in Palestine when they wanted to occupy it in the name of Israel and to never forget or let it happen to them again....of course the “others” are not in that ideal to never let it happen to them ….they are after all the terrorists and the ones that are a threat to their way of life…
We all learned from the best and greatly improved on the techniques.

There are things the Nazis did better...Their uniforms, the fact they had a goal in mind for their country and people, They had a plan that everyone could see and know about if they wanted to know. Germany was organized.
SHGBA!

Me Update:

I am much better. It is a good thing I practice witchy medicine. With the American system it helps. Side effects/allergic reactions to drugs and foods that are not anaphylaxis are more common...at least on me...And the only medicine that helps are antihistamines for me.

I have discovered that when I do have any sort of reaction to food or drug or mote the area affected that is weak..a former injury site for me, is most common. So I won't swell my tongue, I swell an injured knee or shoulder. And the swelling causes pain and major problems. The allergic reaction then mimics some other aliment. If I see a doctor I get a new drug, but that drug does not take care of the original reason for the pain in the first place. So I do not go to the doctor until I try out my own remedies.

My mother was a nurse and she did the same. She was from the Old School, no antibiotics or wonder drugs when she trained those 3 full years. She was an infection control nurse, worked in a TB hospital (she had the vaccine for TB) she was a polio nurse, a surgical nurse. I was brought up with a proper hygiene life style and a good strong fear of Doctors. (Doctors have tried to kill me twice with Statin drugs. I have permanent damage of my muscles because of those doctors who dismissed my concerns.)

I am not the least "scientific" in the modern sense. However I am in the old days sense. I try things out and note the results. If I get the same results each time I figure this is a good thing. I know what to avoid and what to embrace.

As my study of me has shown the major damage was to already damaged areas from injury. If I get an immediate reaction, I know what to do. But when the reaction is slow over a week or so the underlying cause can get over looked and all manner of tests and such will not present the cause and then the drug treatments ensue if I go to the doctor. Since a visit to the doctor is not a desirable thing, I need to investigate on my own.

I noticed I was hurting and my knee was killing me for no real reason (I refused to just think it was getting old) I could not life the things I lifted a few weeks ago...I am not talking about years ago!.... What has changed, what have I done or ate that was new of different? Red rice crackers came in a few weeks ago and I liked those crispy sesame rice crackers. I ate them by the bowlful as a snack. A few days back I blog about what was going on and decided to reflect on what and why I was feeling so crummy. I was in major limping pain and was scared some horrible thing was going on with me...alone with a 95 year old and the too many cats...with winter coming...I was scared.

I stopped the crackers several days ago( the day I wrote the last blog. I thought my fibromyalgia was acting up...it is...but it was more than just that is was that Statin reaction again. It is the same each time and since I keep a journal I was able to looks up the past symptoms I had.

Last night I took the bendryl, 2 tablets & some vitamins (niacin, l-lysine, C) for good measure. I roasted my legs with the heating pad all night. Here is the clincher I was up peeing 3 times. A sure thing that the swelling was being taken care of. It always happens to me after a sever allergic reaction that the swelling is release through the kidney and bladder.

So I am on the road to recovery. I am better today than I was 10 hours ago. I will have aches and pains in all the places that were affected but they will ease up in time. When the tissues are swollen they cause discomfort and pain.

My theory is again proved for me. I need to treat the fibromyalgia still, however that is manageable with exercise, nutrition, and keeping the stress and bad thought at bay. The aches and crippling pain is gone. The residual is easing up. So this is the life of me.
A little Witchy medicine and common sense helped my recovery.

Cheers!

A Little Detective Work

I have been feeling crummy for many weeks now, more so than normal. While in bed I wondered why. Why do I hurt all over for no good reason. Who beat me with a rubber hose all night? Here is what I came up with.

1. I moved to a new house and it is in need of major fixing and decorating. I am at the mercy of hired help that are not too good at time management.

2. I took in my 95 year old Aunty and gave her a home when she needed one. This has created a real change in my daily life.

3. My diet has changed. I am a vegetarian and would rather be one and it looks like I will revert and have to cook for her and me separately since my eating with her the same food is not agreeing with me. I now know I do not miss meat and I am happier with out it.

4. A few weeks ago I got in some great red rice crackers and I think my dainty system is sensitive enough to react with the natural Statins in the red rice.....Doctors have tried to kill me twice with Statin drugs and I know this pain is that same pain now that I observed and thought about it this morning.

5. I am drinking more coffee than I used too. Caffeine is not good for Fibromyalia of which I have, but had it under control until this move.

6. I do have Fibromyagia and I have not taken care of it for many months now. It is only natural that it should flair up when I rather it did not.

Life is hard and my body is telling me to do different things. That good heating on my knee made it feel great...I had my lap top on my lap baking my knee and my knee worked fine when I got up from bed; So I need to keep the knee warmer than I have been. Leggings under my shorts! The heating pad anytime I can sit....

I also need to do my Sit and Be Fit DVDs. There is no station on this stupid Direct TV that has Sit and Be Fit.(http://www.sitandbefit.org/) However the Direct TV ruined my TV for the dvd player so I need a new TV for my DVDs. TVs cost money. Lots of money. I need one that is smaller than the giant one I wanted; and it must work with my receiver and speakers and DVD player. I will acquiesce to having one in my room.

I need to feel better. For me for my babies, for my sweetie, and aunty.
So I embark on the olden ways that worked and maybe the screen on this little laptop is big enough to play my DVD until I get something bigger.....

Time will tell.

Morning Ramble

I am far away from home while Sweetie is with his little princess who is in the process of passing out of this life.

The sun is out here. There was a big frost last night. The first one I have seen so it is my first October frost in the new house.

It is becoming a home, every so often something arrives that I unpack and use where I had nothing. Storage is a major issue. I hate clutter;cats raced through the living room and took out a lamp last night. I think it is just the lousy light blub.

I bought 2 boxes of those light bulbs so far each has lasted about 2 days or 6 hours. I hate when what I buy turns out to be crap. I am not rich or even up to middle class anymore, and the package of 5 dollar light bulbs that do not work would have bought a loaf of bread, a dozen eggs and 2 cans of cat food. I wonder if Romney or Obama think of their money in those terms? The one million dollars spent for a day or so of campaigning would set my family up for the rest of our lives.

$5 is a lot of money to me right now. And if that is true then the $400 it takes to fill the heating Oil tank is very hard to come by. And $5 is a lot of money to me now.

There is no one who has lived this poor who is running for office now. If they were poor then it was decades ago and are glad they GOT THEIRS!

I once had a wonderful job and was on the list (short list with only me on it!) for a tenure track position. However Dean Mayo did not like me, I think she was a racist. But I do know that she said to my chair that she did not want me hired as a full time tenure track professor. My Chair obliged her. You know what?! That B*** of a Dean left the college a semester later to go to work at MY Alma Mater! In MY department I loved while at that university! From that moment I have never donated one cent to my old University.
I knew that woman as a liar and a cheat (with a weenie Ph.D. to boot!). She took the work of others and passed them off as her own. She stood up for the teachers in her own race and stabbed those who were not in the back. I was there for 10 years and I saw how she worked.

So these are the rambles on a frosty October morning. The coffee is made and I have a cup and the sun is out and I am glad I do not live in Texas any more. I'd rather be in Maine and poor than live with in a town with such nasty people. I have many for tales in the life of me and this little afsana is just one.

October Already!!

I love October! I am in the next best place to experience October....Maine....the first best is Miramichi New Brunswick. The days are mild when the sun is out; however, even if the sun is hiding behind the clouds the tress look like there is a ray of old Sol gilding the leaves. These golds, burgundies, russets, yellows create a sunny feeling on the greyest day.

I needed to drive to Bangor on Wednesday and the colors were beautiful. Here in the Pine Tree State the decorations by Nature inspire me. Deep green with the splashes of golds and russet, burgundy and yellow.

Who but nature should tell me what colors go with what? I have changed my color scheme for my downstairs rooms. On a cloudy grey day I want pops of colors, warm colors. Since there is no hot weather here I do not want cool colors.

I have just had a great idea....a wall mounted laundry room utility sink. The floor is slanted, I need floor space for litter boxes for the cats. And how easy can it be to wash big thing in the snow? So another great idea and now I just need to find space for what is already there.

I love October, I love all of Autumn and Wintah. I love Spring and now I will be able to love Summer! So everything is OK just send money and I will be fine! :-)