Life after the fall of America

I have been contemplating an essay after the Trump win. I am seeing in this first few days the sharp decline of compassion and common sense. I will be writing more later. However I wanted to start the set of ideas in motions now. So far I have not seen ONE republican show any concern for what these executive orders are doing to the fabric of what was the United States of America. This can only be because not one Republican cares are this planet, peace, non billionaire people AKA serfs. I think I could never be in the same room as a person who s a republican ever again. The lies and hatred they embrace is sickening to me. No one who supports this person, now the Il Duce of this once nice country can be anything but walking hatred and evil. Il Duce Trump showed his cruelty and evil ness in one bill that he has tabled and that is all I need to see in order to judge his lack of Character. Of course he does not care what I think and not one republican will care what I think. I print this just because I still can.

I Will Die

I am going to die. I am terminal and there is no time frame. It can come tonight or next year or next week. But I am going to die sooner than I thought. I am not ill. This past year has shown me that age makes no difference when we die. Relatives life span makes no difference when we will die. Even lifestyle habits will make no difference when I will kick the bucket.
I have been told, lovingly suggested, to declutter my life. Toss the flotsam and jetsam that surround me, pare down my stuff. I have lots of stuff. I have lots of clothes. I am planning on wearing a sari more often so I have several of those too. I need to delete possessions.
I hope I can learn to take a picture, post it, then toss in the trash the items of my life….. the milestones of this long journey that is my life.
My biggest obstacle in decluttering my life is where to put the items still useable. There is no place except the trash here in the wilderness. This past Christmas could be my last and I need to divest myself of decorations. They are no regular ornaments but all unique…..beautiful…..
So many memories are there. However it is not as much as their memories as their intrinsic beauty that I keep them. I can not deep six beautiful things.
My mind races with ideas on how to keep them, use them see them everyday without looking like or becoming a hoarder.
I used to play a game on what I would pack in my backpack if I had to leave earth like in Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy. What would I want with me always…
Now that I am dying I can not take anything with me. I fear living in an empty space devoid of color and beauty until then. I have see very old people grow indifferent to their surroundings and only worry about their next poop. I refuse to live that way. And I will not.
So I need to divest myself of what has defined who I am all these years. It is the memories and the experiences with people that matter I am told. But……But I learned through the painful experiences in my life that people betray, lie, hurt, steal and otherwise try to make a life miserable because they can. Whereas stuff, those items of beauty that I am surrounded with have never betrayed me, harmed me. I am not a hoarder. I know when I have enough of a thing I collected.
So I am dying and I need to make those that will roll up my carpet lives easier since they will be the ones driving to the land fill.

Rest in Peace My country Tis of Thee!

It is the hardest event to watch….when one’s beloved has reached an age that society deems unfit to work. To watch a vibrant active man who loved his profession and excelled beyond his colleagues abilities being kicked out for racial prejudice is heart breaking. As a professor he was the most caring of teachers and his passion for his subject infused his students with the desire to learn.
Now he is out to pasture, a forced pasture, by those who helped put Trump in office and those who reelected and doted on Bush. To side line a person because of his origins is cruel and short sighted; however, we now see how blind these people are.
The education system, once a grand testament to our forefathers, now breeds consumers, insipid leaners, and truly ignorant people. Our once proud yeoman nation is a hovel ruled by ultra elites. A citizen is either a serf or an elite.

The Elites mock the learned ones and belittles their knowledge as superfluous. When has any culture thought knowledge was not a good thing? When has a society even begrudged teachers, mocked teachers? Yet this country has been mocking teachers for generations. Television is the mirror of society however it also is the creator of society. We have become the sitcom citizenry. Inept dad, sexy mother, obnoxious rude children, the brunt of most jokes are the educational system.
Where has this taken our once great nation? We are morally bankrupt, spendthrifts, hate filled people who scream obscenities at strangers in public.
So this is where I am with a vital man who is forced to do nothing when his dream was to teach as long as he lived. Thank-you to all you phony people who think you are Christians, who think you are patriots, you are neither. This country is tanking because of your hatred and your willful ignorance. Rest in Peace My country Tis of Thee!

How to Stop Caring?

I went to shop and saved money by not buying a cake or something nice to eat. I did see that saltine crackers( all the new boxes) are now less than 16 ounces...but the same price. This for some reason really irritates me. I feel cheated and stolen from for some reason. Since I used to teach a modern version of Home economics I really pay attention to prices and weights.. How many of you are old enough to remember coffee was sold by the pound( 16 ounces)? My cat food cans once were 6.5 ounces a can now they are 5. Cats do not eat less. I do not ( well now I do) make less coffee in a week. A jar of mayonnaise was a quart( 32 ounces) now many are 30 ounces or a fraction so doing math in ones head is very difficult when trying for the price per ounce. It is not done for metric sake since the grams are not even either it is all done to make thinking by the shopper harder to decide which is a better deal. My income has not gone up and T-rump will make sure it goes down. My standard of living has been sliding for 18 years at least....Or when coffee stopped being by the pound. I do think that is closer to 30years since my Dad was still alive. SO I have another useless irritation that I can do nothing about and I do not know how to not care. I feel sorry for the young people thinking this is right, It is ard living in the new normal when I can remember the way it was just a few months ago and saltines were still a pound box.

The Tragic Loss of our Lifetime

After my initial reaction to the devastating results of yesterday’s election I am further appalled at learning that women actually voted for Trump. I can not believe any self-respecting woman could vote for such an odious man. Of course I have been watching him since the 1970s and to me he is simple rich white trash. However this is not about Trump he is the president elect no matter what I think.
What I want to write about is Hillary Clinton. No matter what she did or did not do in the past she would have made a better president simple because she would have been our destiny. By that I mean she would have felt the 100s of years of women suffrage, of women’s lot in life, of women’s oppression and all the trials and tribulations we as women have gone through, our mothers, our grandmothers and so on.
Hillary would have felt the weight of history on her shoulders and would have wanted to leave a legacy to be proud of. No matter what you think about her past adventures her presidency would have been different. Whereas this is just a gig for Trump some spectacle to look good with.
Not Hillary, she would have tried her best to leave this country better and united like never before. I was a Bernie Sanders supporter in the early stages but could accept Hillary as a viable President. She is educated worldly smart and a woman who came from the bottom….all of us women start at the very bottom no matter what we do. If we are no eye candy then we need to work twice as hard, learn ten times as much to be thought of as just OK.
I am sad that we can not have a woman for President in my life time. I do not see anyone equal to the job waiting in the wings; I am getting old and still there is no one to represent me in the government except a precious few women who fought their way to their seats. Yes we are oppressed here in the United States but women do a lot of the oppression. We have been pitted against each other by men like Trump….the only things that matters is our beauty. If we have no beauty we are nothing in the eyes of most men out there. If we have brains we are subjected to ridicule, innuendo, and rudeness that would have a man punching others in the face if he had such treatment.
But now American will never be great; no matter what The Donald says. As empire we hit the plateau some years back and are now heading down the slope of decline.
A woman president would have made a difference since she would have had all our mothers past watching her and approving or not approving of her actions as first woman President. But other women did not give her a chance and used lame excuses to not voting for her. It is tragic and we will rue that action. Other women voted against their own best interest because they refused to be sisters united. Our biggest fault is letting men decide our worth. And we lost everything this election.

Aftermath

After the election news last night I felt sick inside; my stomach turned and I could vomit. I also felt incredible sadness. I am in shock actually, because all my ideals, my beliefs have been proved wrong beyond any doubt.
I was always proud of my country thinking there was basic humanity here at least the regular people were at heart kind and caring. I have been ignoring the signs for a while I know that now.

After 9/11 things got very bad for me. I was harassed at work and lost my job. My career was destroyed on purpose by the same people who voted in Trump yesterday. So I have been dealing with this stress since 2002.
But I never lost my faith that Americans were down deep decent people. Until last night when they elected a racist hate-monger with no grace or class. Just a blunt sledge hammer personality which sees every thing as something to be destroyed for his perverted pleasure. He is the boy who tortures puppies, he sets ants and butterflies on fire with a magnifying glass with happiness.

It made no difference to those who voted for him that he was disrespectful to women, hated huge groups of people…We see his adult children spoiled, above the commoners, They grind their boots on our hands while we pick up their leavings in desperation.

I now see with eyes open that there is no more American ideal; no American dream except greed and avarice. Money for the rich is good and if a person is poor he must die to decrease his use of resources.
I am sad, and sad is such a little pathetic word for how deeply I feel this loss of country, of ideal of what I thought my grandparents immigrated to give a better life to their children and grandchildren. It is such profound deeply gut grabbing feeling. I am sick. I am bereft of any hope. Let the world burn now. I no longer live.

People vs Human Being

I have decided that people are all of those of my species that are nasty, evil, and just not evolved to the point of compassion, love, and intelligence.
I had a set of cards made up to give to people who want my email, telephone number, and the spelling of my name like business cards. In the blank place where I was to put profession or a whatever I am I thought a long time. I am no longer an English Professor. The people who black listed me in San Antonio saw to it that I would never work again. So then what am I? I write poetry and make crafts take care of home and cats....nothing much really. I decided to put Human Being.
I am an evolved Human Being from where the words Humanity, Humane, come from. Since most of the people I see and know are not that evolved People describes them best. People are scum-buckets, self centered, cruel, evil....a litany of bad words in all their definition glory. So when ever I write I hate people it is not the Human Beings I am speaking of. Much like the Chief in "Little Big Man". Human beings are in the minority. People are a dime a dozen and mostly take one they are free. I can go through the list of who they are but for a real Human Being they will know whom I am referring to.
Q picked up Munchkin from the street this morning and she is now dead. Munchkin was a baby, all fluffy and very pretty but wild. We are feeding her mother and when Munchkin showed up she was fed too. People allow these cats to become feral by being too cheap and mean to spay and neuter, then turn them out when they are no longer cute kittens. Throw them away as if their life does not matter. I have news for you People. All lives matter. And right now every life matters more than People's lives since People are the blight on the face of the earth. Cheating, lying hate-filled, thieves and degenerates. People are pathetically depraved. That is why Human Beings are such a small minority on earth. We are killed off fast by People. Like cockroaches People breed and swarm all over the Human Beings.
So, when you contemplate your actions EVERY action think are you a People or a Human Being? How evolved are you really? Do you cry for a Munchkin, for those who are fleeing the wars we started in Syria? Are you happy with the thought of more wars, or hungry children in our own country, begrudge those who just can't function and call them bad because something inside them can't? Think about it. Our numbers are small and that is why the world is in the crap shape it is in. One Human Being for 10,000 People can not change anything although we try every day. We try.